We were friends from 2009-2020… it began in middle school. She was my person, the one I trusted to tell everything, the one I could count on to make me laugh in my darkest moments.
On my wedding day in September of 2020, she missed the ceremony but came to the reception, stayed all of 30 minutes, and left. We laughed and hugged and took photos… as far as I knew nothing was wrong. We never had “fights”, although she was prone to dropping off for weeks and sometimes even months at a time (usually only when beginning a new relationship) and it was really weird. It made me sad when it would happen because it was sudden and I never knew how long it would last so I would miss her of course, but I never held it against her and welcomed her back with open arms when she was ready to come around again.
The day after my wedding I sent her photos of us together and asked her to send me the ones she took. No response. A few days later I asked if she was ok. No response. 2 weeks later, I sent her some more really sweet ones of my son and I at the wedding. No response. So I decided it was just one of those times again, I’ll wait for her to reach out when she’s ready. Waited several months and she still had not reached out. Almost a year later, still nothing and I decided to text her happy birthday but my text wouldn’t go through. That was the last time I reached out.
Several months after THAT my husband saw her working at our local mall and she acted like she didn’t know him. It’s now been over 3 years since my wedding day when we last spoke and my heart is still broken. Idk if it’s because there was no closure and I have absolutely no clue what happened or what…. But I think about her all the time. Memories pop up on my social media. I have dreams of reuniting with her… she is my Roman Empire. ? I hope she’s okay, I hope she’s happy, I hope her girls are happy, I hope the man she started dating ended up being her soulmate, I hope they got married. I just wish that she would’ve seen me as worthy of getting to witness it all.
I still care about her so much and idk how not to.
EDIT: to answer some questions: I asked her to be my moh and she went mia for months (and we didn’t plan our wedding long after engagement, got married quickly) and when she finally came back around she told me she couldn’t commit to being in the wedding and I told her I understood. But I wanted her to be in it. She’s not on any social media and has a new number. And idk where she lives. So, trying to reach out again is pretty much a no go cause I can’t
